A Mom

If you have a mom, there is nowhere you are likely to go where a prayer has not already been. - Robert Brault

This quote holds true for my mom. I have always known and felt her prayers carrying me, and what an amazing gift that is. My mom is a tiny lady. Sometimes I cannot believe she is still standing with the amount of weight she has had to carry. This is the second Mothers Day where she has not heard her youngest child's voice, thanking her for all that she had done and expressing her love. You see, my sister is in Heaven now, and for anyone who has lived this deep valley you realize that the meaning of holidays and joy change. God has made a way, where there seemed to be no way, and through Him my mom is still standing, sometimes tall and sometimes barely. But no matter what, she holds on with a passion you only have when you are put in a situation that gives you no other option. Jesus has held her and our family, and so often I wish I could be to her what she most often is to me. I love you Mom, from here to Heaven and thank Jesus everyday for the road He has made that leads to eternity... together forever, our whole family.

Mothers day means many different things to different people. I believe it was meant to be a day set aside to honor our Mothers, taking time to thank them and be with them. And that is a wonderful thing. But I can't help but think of my two beautiful children, and the two amazing women who gave life to them. How do they feel today when all around them people are happily celebrating and maybe deep down inside, few know their hurt. Many don't understand, and most don't even try. I wish I could tell them how much I love them, how much I pray for them, how much I hurt for them, and how I long to hug them and thank them. Along with my first paragraph the words of "There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears" come rushing into my mind and I sing that with hope, faith and a longing for my heart to never hurt again. Without these two courageous women, Jake and I would not be parents, and I too would hurt so deeply, especially on this day we set aside for Mothers. This brings me to my next point. So many people want nothing more than to be a Mom. They would give everything and anything to hold a child in their arms, call them their very own, and love them with a passion that sometimes we as Mothers forget to. This day is nothing but a reminder to them that they are not a mommy, and that is not easy on a normal day. Jesus, please hold them.

Also there are so many who have lost their Moms. They long to tell their moms how they are missed and long to see them, touch them, hold them again. This is not an easy day for them and my heart hurts thinking of them. I am so very thankful that I have my mom in my life, and I can't imagine my life without her, but I can't imagine my life without my sister either and yet somehow.....

I'm sure there are many other things we could think about on this special day but this is what was on my heart today. I am so thankful today to say that I have two children that could not be more our own. They bring so much joy and love. They bring me to my knees in frustration and tears. They bring me to Jesus in their words and actions and child faith. They show me often that without Him this parenting thing would be next to impossible. They make me smile, they make me cry, but they always make me thankful. God entrusted us with these two beautiful souls. Wow! I pray I will do what He has called me to do, and always strive be what I need to be as their Mother. Just like my Mom is to me, and that's a lot to live up to :)

My little girl's not so nice one liner of the day

Driving their bikes, my nephew got ahead of her and she says to him "idiot!" (I have no idea where she has learned that word!!! Oh wait.... maybe once I had road rage??) Anyway, she is promptly told not to say that. Her response-"Sometimes I say that to boys!"

Oh the joys:) Goodnight!!!