Thoughts

Isn't it interesting how humans want control over their lives, and think they sort of know whats coming and whats going and yet time and time again, are proven different? Ya, God reminded me again this week who's in control of my life, and luckily its not me. Although there are many situations in my life where I'd have rather made the final decision, I'm thankful that in this sin filled world, God has made a way for me.

Wednesday evening through Friday evening were spent in a hospital with my sick husband, at a town 4 hours south of home. Fun right? Well actually, while spending some time alone with my thoughts, without the interruptions of my children, I actually had some good God & husband time! This was of course after Jake started feeling better. There were so many things I could have been doing at home, but besides spending time with the kids, everything else waited patiently for our return.

I spent some time with a lady who was sick, scared and alone. I felt so bad for her but enjoyed listening to her. I prayed for her, and am still. I really had to stop and be so very thankful for family, friends, and the rich heritage I come from. God gave me a life that is so blessed, and yet my heart is often discontent. After spending some time with her, I learned that she possibly has Crohns, and obviously that alone brought many thoughts. So yes, I also spent a lot of time in thoughts of my sister, who I miss with everything in me, but it also, like so many times before, let me wonder at being with her again. And those are my happier thoughts.

So having two days to sit around also made me miss my kids. Normally when I leave them, its because we have something planned where we're busy and having fun, and usually I enjoy this break from parenting. But it got me to thinking about how much of their lives I miss, not from being away, but from getting caught up in the busyness of my life and the selfishness in me. Now that thought alone could take up many pages, but I won't. I just need to figure out my priorities and live them. Again, making me realize that I can't do this alone.

Thankfully we brought Jake in before his infection got any worse. Hes on the up and up and we praise Jesus for this. Our children were so worried about their daddy, asking if he had needles and probably connecting this to when their Auntie got sick. In their young minds this was probably a lot scarier for them then we realized. This made me think of how careful one has to be when explaining things to kids. Not giving quick, uniformed answers but making sure they understand to their ability what is going on around them.

So this is a glimpse into my mind.... lucky you!

Sweet Kid Moment of The Day

The ending of Kobe's prayer tonight, after praying for Justin and Lynden of course!

"and please take away all the bees, Amen!"

Yes I followed that with a big Amen also, but I guess in the morning I'll have to explain again that this prayer may not be answered during this lifetime! Oh, and Ellie started taking off with her bike, without the training wheels. She was so pumped to do this by herself. Goodbye babies, hello juniors!!! Love them:)